Now that the holiday vacation is over and the house is quiet, I could take time to reflect upon the important events of last year and give thanks to all the good that has come from the bad. There was a period of time last year when both Peter and I were stressed out and in crisis mode because our children were going through difficulties in their young lives. We worried about and feared for them. Peter’s hair turned grey seemingly overnight.
I feel fortunate that we have endured and life is thriving again. I’m sure our children will face many more challenges in life, but I hope having overcome severe obstacles has made them more tenacious.
When I was going through a very difficult time in my late 20s, a friend gave me Nietzsche’s The Will To Power as a source of strength and comfort. I took it off the shelf today and opened it to a passage that my friend had underlined and bookmarked for me a long time ago, “To those human beings who are of any concern to me I wish suffering, desolation, sickness, ill-treatment, indignities — I wish that they should not remain unfamiliar with profound self-contempt, the torture of self-mistrust, the wretchedness of the vanquished: I have no pity for them, because I wish them the only thing that can prove today whether one is worth anything or not — that one endures.”
I’m a mother and I could never wish any suffering upon my children, but I understand the value of all the “bad stuff” that happen to us in life.
I don’t have a New Year resolution, but I do have a New Year Prayer. I pray for the wellbeing of my loved ones and I pray for courage and strength to endure and triumph in the face of adversity.
Vegetable Sauté Ingredients:
8 to 10 oz. green bean
1/2 red bell pepper (sliced)
1/2 yellow bell pepper (sliced)
1 pack of Wildwood Savory Tofu (2 pieces)
1 teaspoon soy sauce
1 tablespoon oyster sauce
1/2 teaspoon sugar
1 to 2 tablespoon canola oil
4 thin slices of ginger
Poach the green beans in boiling water for about 3 to 4 minutes or until tender but not too soft and discard the boiling water. Rinse cold water over the green beans to stop them cooking. Drain and set aside.
Heat the oil in a wok on high, add the ginger slices and let sizzle. When the ginger slices are a little browned, add the bell pepper and stir for about 4 minutes. Add the poached green beans and the tofu and stir for a minute. Mix in the soy sauce, oyster sauce and sugar.
Serve immediately with rice.
As I write, I could almost hear Nietzsche stir in his grave as he is being quoted next to a vegetable stir-fry. As a matter of fact, the very act of blogging one’s life would be conceived as “the constant fluttering around the single flame of vanity.” But then again, maybe not. His New Year resolution for 1882 was to be a yea-sayer and a beautifier of life: “For the New Year—I still live, I still think; I must still live, for I must still think. Sum, ergo cogito: cogito, ergo sum. To-day everyone takes the liberty of expressing his wish and his favorite thought: well, I also mean to tell what I have wished for myself today, and what thought first crossed my mind this year,—a thought which ought to be the basis, the pledge and the sweetening of all my future life! I want more and more to perceive the necessary characters in things as the beautiful:—I shall thus be one of those who beautify things. Amor fati: let that henceforth be my love! I do not want to wage war with the ugly. I do not want to accuse, I do not want even to accuse the accusers.Looking aside, let that be my sole negation! And all in all, to sum up: I wish to be at any time hereafter only a yea-sayer!”